The walls of my brain
the plants on the window
and unfinished beers on the counter.
There is cool
wind blowing in, the breeze
is fresh and cold from
The rain and concrete but it seems
as if … the air inside this room 
would still stand still
in its own imprisoning humidity.
Sockets without plugs
Glass reflecting human
Flesh and misleadingly
White sheets.

A small lamp lights up the corner,
only darkening
the shadows lingering in this dresser.
A shelf of books, a lonely
photograph of the pit
of your arm and
the curtains I use – ever so often,
to ban the light.

I never shut the door, completely,
Yet it seems there
is no escape
from these eggshell walls, the wooden floor that fails
to ground me.
and the mouse that runs
- and hides – occasionally. 

Am I living in my head?
(No, I am not living)
I am longing for space
But the bricks won’t give in.
I am held
by my own discomfort
listening to your steps
between those other walls
Your shadows through the slit under the door.
Wondering, how long it would take you
to sense my rotten smell
- when I know – it is I who cannot bear it.
I wait for you to disappear
before I open up
But – it just so happens – that this time, you knock
And I … let you in?

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